Believe it or not, I have not abandoned my blog. I have, however, been waiting on myself to "get back in the game" before posting again. I'm pretty sure when I'm not "in the game" is when I really need to post, though.
Where have I been (in regards to sharing any weight loss/weight struggles), you may wonder. I have been...here. I have been living and struggling...falling, really..right off the wagon. I have been unmotivated which has caused me to become a tad depressed which has lead me to overeat...the usual cycle. How, oh, how do I break this??? To be fair to myself, last year from the months of January through April is when I put on the bulk of my weight. I am beginning to think my attitude and motivation may be partially due to the season. The snow, ice, cold, wet...beautiful in its' own way, but I find it mostly depressing. I truly love being outdoors and I adore nature. Not really being able to be a part of it without being wet or frigid is taking its' toll.
Honestly, I wouldn't even be posting but I told a friend that I would weigh myself today and post about it if she would step on the scale, too. So, in essence, I'm living up to my end of the bargain ;) It's the first step...
No surprise here, but I have gained back 5 pounds. Considering I worked out for the first time in February last Tuesday and that I haven't been eating healthy at all, I kind of was expecting a higher weight gain. Now isn't that just sad.
"God knows our situation; He will not judge us as if we had no difficulties to overcome. What matters is the sincerity and perseverance of our will to overcome them." ~C.S. Lewis
I do have a plan and it involves prayer, exercise, resisting temptation, eating healthier, prayer, cooking ALL of our meals this week, prayer, blogging about food struggles and prayer. More than just an appetite problem, this "overeating" is a sin for me. It's ugly, gross and it has a name: gluttony. I have confessed, repented and am trusting God's promise to give me the strength to resist temptation. I am trying to fill my mind with His Word and not keep idle hands, both of which I should be doing anyway but this is a sure fire way to avoid temptation and/or defeat it.
"Therefore submit to God. Resist the devil and he will flee from you. Draw near to God and He will draw near to you. Cleanse your hands, you sinners; and purify your hearts, you double minded"
"Therefore, do not let sin reign in your mortal body, that you should obey it in its lusts. And do not present your members as instruments of unrighteousness to sin, but present yourselves to God as being alive from the dead, and your members as instruments of righteousness to God. For sin shall not have dominion over you, for you are not under law but under grace."